I just finished up commissioning the last bits of art for my book. Every time I go through this process it surprises me just how difficult it can be emotionally.
I'm looking at my sketches for what I want, and they're terrible. I have no artistic talent at all. A fourth grader and draw better than me. I'm browsing through artists, none of them do the exact kind of work I want, which is shocking really since I'm just looking for black and white fantasy stuff. So I have to choose one and hope for the best.
Then I have to contact the artist. Write up a description, attach my sketch, and maybe a screenshot from a movie or game that will help better communicate what I want. Then I have to wait to see if they'll accept the job. Then wait again as they work on it. Anxiety!
That waiting time is killer, because I'm unsure of how it will turn out. Will I like it? Will I hate it? Will it be good enough to use? I imagine as I get more used to this, I'll develop a tougher skin. I won't worry about it so much. Hope so...but kinda doubt it.
But I'm closing in on the deadline: January 3rd. that's when my book goes for cover and layout. Everything has to be done by then. Will it? I don't know. Stay tuned.
And speaking of something that's done, don't forget! This Friday I have my map reveal. I can't wait to share it with you. I think it's AWESOME!